Ok - I was at London Drugs looking at their flat screen TV's when I was transfixed by a Ricky Martin concert. I am sure I did not blink for 5 min.....

OMG that man aged well. He says he is not gay but I would still do him in a heart beat.....



Truth is - its his eyes. Eyes are my greatest weakness. Dark hair and dark eyes. The darker the eyes the better. Mind you the rest of him is fucken hot as well.....

Strange dreams last night - one was a sexual fantasy with a bunch of leather men - LOL - the other had me and devon chatting over a glass of juice in my kitchen. Go figure..... Neither are going to happen - LOL - well maybe the first one might..... (keeps fingers crossed.....)

Took my dad to the hospital this morning - he gets his other hip replaced. This will be the last time since he is 71 and well the new hips will out last him. Strange to say but it is true.

Happy Birthday Hans - you are such a sweetie and I am so glad we met. Having you to talk to, especially when I was going through all the shit I was going through earlier this year made a big difference in my life. HUGS HUGS and more HUGS..... Enjoy your day.....

It's freaken cold in the office this morning as the furnace is on the fritz. At least it is not -40 - YET.....

Looked at my bank statement online now that all the mortgages are posted. Yikes, I'm going to be paying for the rest of my life..... Sigh - Oh well - it is still an accomplishment and it's a real home even though half of it is still in the garage.

I had to go downtown today to pay my December property taxes. Where I use to go down town several times a week, I now avoid the area as much as I possibly can. Today I had no choice.

I got out in front of city hall and looked across the street to where he lives. My stomach started twisting and I felt like I was going to throw up. I quickly went inside city hall only to find a line up. As I was waiting, my hands started to shake. I got a hold of Patric and he calmed me down.

Not to many people understand but a few do and Patric is one of them.

Coffee is purking and I am sitting here in my new livingroom. I am tired and I had a dull throbbing headache most of the night.

I was having doubts about the place but now that I have my own furniture and things in it, I am starting to feel better. I have alot of organizing to do but at least I can do that at my own pace now.

It does feel a bit strange but in time it will feel like a home - finally.

About the size of a garage door (seriously), Panasonic's 103-inch high-definition plasma TV ($69,995.00; panasonic.ca) offers a stunning widescreen and 1080p (1,920 x 1,080 pixels) picture, 4,000:1 contrast ratio (for ultra-deep blacks) and multiple HDMI ports to attach all your high-def devices such as a cable/satellite box, Blu-ray Disc player, game console or camcorder. Um, did we mention it's 103 inches? A word of warning: You might not be able to get rid of your friends and neighbours so fast. Oh, and at 485 pounds, it's probably something you don't want to mount to your wall


Ok - well being a typical guy I started to think WOW - Xbox would take on a whole new level...... then of coarse I also went - WOW - Porn would take on a whole new level.....

My parents where in town - my dad getting pre-op work done for his hip replacement next week. They came for lunch at the condo and met Patric at the same time.

All though I did not come out I could see the wheels spinning. It was nice however to put faces to the names. The boys and I talk about Patric all the time and of coarse I talk to Patric about my family all the time.

I know Patric was nervous and stressed. Me on the other hand, it was nice. Granted its not the same as saying "Mom Dad, this is Patric my boyfriend", I do know it will happen.

Being exhausted this morning I did not even bother with breakfast. Sitting at my desk working away, my sweetie just brought me breakfast.

I have never experienced such a kind and thoughtful gesture. It's nice when someone thinks of another and just surprises you for no other reason other than he wanted to.

Sunday and Yesterday were crazy days. I hate moving but at least this will be my last time for some time.

Of coarse I plopped into bed last night total exhausted. Slept in the new place. It was odd to say the least. It is going to take some time getting use to.

I woke up at 2 in the morning to Patric snoring and then I could not fall asleep again. Mind was racing. Was this the right thing to do? Will the kids be happy? Heck, will I be happy? Sigh - can't change it now, I hope once Sunday comes around and I am all in the condo and the apartment is all clean and the walk through is complete, I will be able to relax and hopefully enjoy my accomplishment.

Two more sleeps and I get the keys to my new home. Yikes - I wish I can wave a wand and have all my stuff moved. I am getting a little stressed. Thank goodness I do not have very far to go. LOL if there was no fence I could litterally walk my stuff over.